Mamamia 's daily entertainment podcast The Spill discusses Paris Hilton's documentary This Is Paris. "I was like 'I just don't want to live' because I thought everything was taken away from me. Hilton admitted she "wanted to die" at some points after the tape's release. It felt like I've lost part of my soul and been talked about in such cruel and mean ways". She then added, "It was like being raped. I literally could not walk on the street because I felt like every single person had watched it, had seen me naked and was talking behind my back." I felt like everyone on the street was laughing at me. "I didn't leave my house for, like months. It was all over every news station, every single talk show host, everyone was making fun of it," she said. "Literally overnight my entire life changed. In Netflix documentary The American Meme Hilton wiped back tears as she spoke about it. For years, she's been talking about the trauma that came with the tape. SNL ran skits, Pink mocked her in her 'Stupid Girls' music video and David Letterman shared a monologue about her before a howling audience.Īt no point did we consider Hilton, and the impact this would have on her. Hilton became the butt of the joke, in private and on huge, public stages.